i am coming!

it is sooooo new to 2013!!


Lots of LOVE, Nads

This is not a good start for 2011

Dear All,

How is 2011 treating ya'll? :) I have not seen mine YET but i am hoping for the best. Dont we all do? ;) Didnt celebrate it. Sama lah mcm tahun tahun lepas coz im such a homey person.. (hahahaha) so i dont really mind if i dont have to go out anywhere.. hehehe

i hv listed some of my personal achievement in my last entry and the last person i tot would read it is my husband. But, i little that i know, he is among the first person to read em.. 1 of his comment was "i love u so much.." and "thank you so much for everything"...

I got stunned there..for 3 seconds i was like "err, what the fish?"...

so he explained to me..

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yeah i know, it has been quite a tough time for the past 1 year.. yeah.. 2010 was seriously a tough year for me.. and love DOES not pay the rent.. love DOES not make u happy for the whole fishing year.. love DOES not make u smile.. love DOES not win your heart.. and LOVE is blind..

It is not that i dont remember what u did. i just dont have a choice. i dont know what to do. i did my part but things just change for a daymn 2-4 days :)

Love used to make me smile.. love used to drag me home.. and love used to be mine..

So since i cant have that kind of love, i know it has to go somewhere! Thank God for giving me a wonderful gift - Eemir Eusuff :) he loves me til the end and so do i :)

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Thats what i learnt in 2010.. I cried, i wiped my tears.. I was pushed, and i stand up tall.. Sometimes nobody can help you with this shits except yourself. You make urself happy and not anyone else. They just cant, coz u can never trust anybody except yourself.. sigh.. this is life we have to face..

I planning to finish up my lab work for the next 6 months. God help me. Gimme strength for everything.. I need You and i will not leave You.

I really hope 2011 will be as wonderful as 2009 :) InsyaAllah










I miss him. let me know if u have found this man.







Lots of LOVE,Nads

2011... what 2010 has done to u?

Salam all,

2011 is approaching.. and i know, most of us will be having their "new year resolutions" to prepare of ;) so i think, before i list down all my new newyear resolutions, why not i think back of what i have achieved....

what i want for the year 2010 is to achieve something in my studies and to GIVE BIRTH!!! :(( takut!!! and i did it..gave birth i mean.. owh God.. so come! lets list down all happy/sad things ive done for the past 1 year :) and will include some of my personal achievement. so for those who's reading it, pls dont feel "meluat" or "eeee...eksyen nye die!" or "like duh..."... coz this is MY BLOG :) tak suka, u can move ur mouse up on ur right hand side, and CLICK the X in the RED BOX :)

1. I had difficulties walking in February... coz my feet got swollen due to pregnancy.. :(

2. I was really scared in my final trimester..and i spent most of the 3rd trimester in the house reciting yassin.. i felt that i was dying in March - due to giving birth :((

3. I had the scarriest time in the labour room in MARCH but i went tru with dignity :)



4. I did not see the whole process of giving birth coz i was wearing my bandana all over my head/face.. i could not see it :(

5. I was VERY sensitive during my confinement..

6. My son's 1st smile was on Mother's day - May?


7. I managed to write 1 paper during the final trimester and 1 ISI conference paper during the first 2 months of post natal :) good work ibu!! ;)

8. My husband gave me an E pendant from Selberan for my birthday :) E = EE = Eemir Eusuff.. my 1st child :)

9. I won 1st prize for student essei competition by Malaysian Road Conference somewhere in September - I was really proud of myself :)

10. Went to Cairo with my co-supervisor the ICBEE conference somewhere in October :)





11. Went to Sabah for the GEOTROPIKA conference in December :) it was a great experience :)


12. I had TERRIBLE experience playing paintball, i WILL NOT play it again!!! :((



13. Alhamdulillah I managed to do my lab work where at the same time we dont have any permanent helper to help us taking care of our baby :) alhamdulillah..it was really a great experience....

14. I had the best time ever with my SON and my husband this year and looking forward for the next 100 years :)




For all the great experiences and gifts, Ya Allah I thank You for everything.. Thank you for giving me strength.. despite the heartache and tears, I thank You for all the help and rezeki You have been giving to me and my whole family.. Ya Allah, I LOVE YOU and please dont let me forget from where i belong and to where im gonna be..

And my new year resolutions.. hmmm.......... I cant think of anything right now except finsihing up my studies and get a job by July........ and hope i could be a good and better mom and wife and seorang anak yg Solehah :)

GOOD LUCK TO ALL MY PREGGY FRIENDS...2011 is going to be another year full of new BABIES!!! :)

hmmm........hmmm.......hmmm..........hmmm..... doa doa kan lah evything ok..i just submitted borang to one of the Uni in KL.. so hopefully evything will be ok insyaAllah :)





Lots of LOVE,Nads

How old are u Ibu?!

Salam,

Sorry..had to jot this down..

Mom asked me how old would i be in the year 2011? hahah next year lah.. without thinking, i answered "im gonna be 25.." HAHAHAHA i got married at the age 26 :D how can i be 25 now!!

Well.. seriously.. i am not admitting something else lah.. ;) it is just that, i have always feeling really young :) seriously.. tak rasa pun mcm i am now 27.. with 1 son :D maybe that is why i can get along easily with my junior-uni-mates.. perasan la..!

so it does not really matter how old i am gonna be.. i am still 25 years of age (indenial) hahahahha

well ok im gonna stop here..

byebye..


Lots of LOVE,Nads

Maysaa

Salam,

Have u heard about Maysaa or the beautiful girl Hana Tajima?? Well, a huge NO from me..

i saw bout Maysaa for a few times but i took it granted and couldnt care less bout it..

but ntah mcm mana, tonight ive decided to browse tru.. omg.. imm sooo in love with it..

and yes, i bought 1 hijab from Maysaa and CANT WAIT for it to arrive in bangsar :)

OMG OMG.. i'll try to post up some pic insyaAllah.. :)

Oh God..i cant help myself from buying all these.. it is just A CLICK AWAY!!

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This is the hijab :) - left

Hana Tajima ;) - Right



Ok gtg continue my school work :)

Hana Tajima sgt Gorjazz :)

Lots of LOVE,Nads

My everdearest Candidature Defense

Salam,

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My lovely baby EE slept really early today.. about 10pm :) Yes THATS EARLY! i managed to find the secrets of "pujuking" ur baby to sleep :) hehe well, after 8 months, baru lah me n hubs got the chance to laze around the house doing nothing :D yes, absoloutely doing nothing :) just to relax once in a while w/o paying attention to our baby huhuhuhu

i am supposed to be studying.... this is the right time to study... for my defense.. but i think im just too tired to look at it and even too tired to sleep :( I really hope i could finish my PhD on time (by Aug 2012 - 4 daymn years)... i think i have to do my lab the "smarter" way instead of the "hard" way.. I did not mean anything like Plagiarism.. eh, Tak nak Grad ke wehh?! Plagiarism is a huge NO NO... u may "Refer" to papers but NOT copy n paste them.. Big No No..

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SO yeah i end up sleeping at 3am, teman hubs watching movie.. and i woke up early to study some stuff.. My babe woke up around 930am.. and now he's back to sleep.. Hey, this is THE life of a mother.. dulu my mom pernah ckp, "ingat senang ke duduk rumah?" well.. now i know.. :(

in my case, i have to jugle housework, Uni work, baby, hubs.. and the list will go on and on and on.. to some people who "does not" understand it, u seriously can GO TO HELL... :D i have zero tolerance towards "kepochi" and "kawan sampai mati tp berlakon tak ingat dunia" kind of friend/person.. hehehe i think, i will never stop thinking of it sigh.. but hey, work load helps alot in forgetting it :)

ok, gtg continue doing my slides and study..







Lots of LOVE,Nads

Cairo :)

Salam,

So yeah we made it to Cairo in October 2010 with hubs n baby and my parents n sister :) ... woah..what a LONG journey..and im GLAD we went with Emirates :) MAS confirm mcm toot... but MAS takde pun flight to Cairo ha ha and this is the 1st time we travlled with our little infant Eemir Eusuff :) Alhamdulillah, God is great..Our son was such a darling.. he loves travelling im sure.. takde kerenah alhamdulillah..and me n hubs managed to focus our energy for the 1st minute we left KLIA till the last minute we touched down KLIA.. :) what a brave young boy and kudos to mummy and daddy.. and not to forget my entourage :) Mom Dad and my sister Ili for taking care of my precious baby :)



The only thing that captured my eyes in Cairo was one and only the..Pyramid :) I thank God for the chance He gave me to witness myself the precious one of the 7 wonders of the world :) Very beautiful and interesting view :) i could stay there the whole day watching at it.. hmmm.. :)

The next picture is me n fellow UM deligates :) Right beside me is my co-supervisor.. expert in Concrete materials :)



We carried Eusuff in that :) Very practical.. but it s kinda heavy lah.. well, he is 11.5 kilos oredy :) my baby sgt sihat.... Oklah, i know im not giving enuff info about Cairo here, but all u have to know is "Cairo is a place for you to go and visit, and it is not the place for u to re-vesit" hahahaha

Cairo above all is a very depressing place.. outskirt cairo oklah... like Heliopolis.. mmg cun.. but Cairo itself..sigh..depressing place.. I dont know how to explain in here, but if ada rezeki lebih, u guys shud go once :)

The next place my conference will be will be in Kota Kinabalu, Sabah for the GEOTROPIKA conference. Will update soon :)






Lots of LOVE,Nads