This is not a good start for 2011

Dear All,

How is 2011 treating ya'll? :) I have not seen mine YET but i am hoping for the best. Dont we all do? ;) Didnt celebrate it. Sama lah mcm tahun tahun lepas coz im such a homey person.. (hahahaha) so i dont really mind if i dont have to go out anywhere.. hehehe

i hv listed some of my personal achievement in my last entry and the last person i tot would read it is my husband. But, i little that i know, he is among the first person to read em.. 1 of his comment was "i love u so much.." and "thank you so much for everything"...

I got stunned there..for 3 seconds i was like "err, what the fish?"...

so he explained to me..

.

..

...

....

....

.....

yeah i know, it has been quite a tough time for the past 1 year.. yeah.. 2010 was seriously a tough year for me.. and love DOES not pay the rent.. love DOES not make u happy for the whole fishing year.. love DOES not make u smile.. love DOES not win your heart.. and LOVE is blind..

It is not that i dont remember what u did. i just dont have a choice. i dont know what to do. i did my part but things just change for a daymn 2-4 days :)

Love used to make me smile.. love used to drag me home.. and love used to be mine..

So since i cant have that kind of love, i know it has to go somewhere! Thank God for giving me a wonderful gift - Eemir Eusuff :) he loves me til the end and so do i :)

.

..

...

....

Thats what i learnt in 2010.. I cried, i wiped my tears.. I was pushed, and i stand up tall.. Sometimes nobody can help you with this shits except yourself. You make urself happy and not anyone else. They just cant, coz u can never trust anybody except yourself.. sigh.. this is life we have to face..

I planning to finish up my lab work for the next 6 months. God help me. Gimme strength for everything.. I need You and i will not leave You.

I really hope 2011 will be as wonderful as 2009 :) InsyaAllah










I miss him. let me know if u have found this man.







Lots of LOVE,Nads